S.S.D.D.

Ok so I've been telling myself for the last three nights that I'm going to post something here on my blog and as you can tell, that has not happened.

Nothing really new going on here in my little world. The job is kicking thy behind into submission, people are getting my nerves, and I find very little time for me and that precious think I like to call sleep.

So, all in all, S.S.D.D. If you do not know what this means then you have led a quite sheltered life and you have damn near no stress. Therefore, you SUCK!

Have a nice day.

Picture Proof

So that you all don't think I overreacted today, I have pictures to prove it.
The first one is from my doorway, the second from behind my desk, and the third from the front of my desk.

It might still fall

Ok so the ceiling in my office is all back up and running. It almost looks not so ghetto (except I know that it is). And my computer, printer and everything else in my office survived, almost. My monitor has a nasty scratch in it at the top and it's almost unnoticable. The printer seems to be doing just fine without even a scratch and everything else seems eh ok.

Except for my chair, which was already falling apart. I was promised a new chair last October. I never got it. Neither did any of my coworkers who were also promised new chairs. Well, after having insulation all over it, I decided that even after being vaccuumed, I didn't trust that it was all out. So now I have a ghetto chair that will probably drop throughout the day and the back is already crooked.

I know, just ask the boss for a new one. Um yeah this is going to happen just like it did in October. It's not. He seems to think my other chair was fine, even the part where I could at any given moment fall back and crack my head open and whatever is behind me because the p.o.s wouldn't stay locked.

So yeah, today was just great! Can't ya tell?

If you enter, it shall fall.

Ok so do you want to know what I walked into at the office this morning? Come on, you know you do. You know that sometimes people say that won't walk into a church because the ceiling will fall in? Yeah well that's what happened to my office this morning.

Luckily, I wasn't in at the time that the entire ceiling decided to come crashing down upon my desk and floor. Luckily, the debris missed my computer screen and printer. Of course, it looked much worse than it actually was. There was lights hanging from the ceiling, on my desk, on the floor, insulation everywhere, and paperwork, paper clips, and everything else small off my desk all over the floor. It was a trip to say the least and not a good one.

After about a half hour of bugging, my boss finally answered his phone so I could tell him that someone had blown up my office last night. (Yes it really looked like someone blew up my office). Actually it looked like it does in the movies just after an earthquake and everything is in pieces, everything except the sparks flying from down powerlines.

My boss decided to fix it himself (with the help of Counselor) and well this does NOT make me feel safe. I mean it could fall over again, while I'm in there. I, of course, will not be using my chair anymore seeing as it is covered in insulation. That's the last thing I need, be all itchy and what not.

So yeah that was my morning. I'll post more when I get a chance.

New Names Given

I sometimes feel like my friend B and feel like I can't write what I want to on my own blog. I know I've said it before, but I know there are some people irl that have the address to my blog, and it is people that I don't want knowing my private thoughts.

I started a new blog on a new server a while back but ended up turning it into a storyline blog (which I haven't posted on forever). I just want to be able to speak my feelings and not have to worry about who is going to see what and what they might say. If it were just little things I wouldn't worry so much, but these people can make my life a living hell if they ran their mouth and I would be much more of a bitch than I already am. Possibly even a bitch in jail for beatin the eff right out of someone because they can't mind their own.

Anyway, I shall move on. I mentioned a few posts back that M&M needed a new nickname. I doubt that he will be mentioned as much anymore but I don't care for the original name I gave him so in the future he will known as Old Flame (O.F.) since he is now my past, not my present, nor my future.

What was it again?

So I've decided that I am boycotting V-Day. I know there are many couples out there that will celebrate this grand and glorious (me puking a bit) holiday (it is really not one). I am so sick of every commercial telling me that I need to buy some little item for my Valentine other half (which I don't have).

I know that it shouldn't really matter or whatever, but as told to me yesterday, I am a very hostile person. And I get extremely angry too easy. I can't really help it. The anger starts out as this little thing that irritates the crap out of me and snowballs into this huge I HATE EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING personality. Eventually, I'll let it all go and start from scratch.

This is all I'm going to say on the subject and it's not why I started this post. I've got some thoughts in my head and when they first jump in, I'm all about getting them in my blog. Then the ADD kicks in and I completely forget what I was going to type by the time blogger gets loaded. Yeah I know, I can't help it.

So as soon as I can figure out what it was I was going to write about I'll be back to let everyone know what it was.

Leaving you wanting more.

Ok so I did a little back-tracking and found that I guess not a whole lot has changed in the last year except for the fact that last year about this time I was trying to pursue something with someone other than M&M (who so needs a new nickname, maybe someday soon).

And thinking back on that made me realize that there are so many unknown prospects out there. And some that could possibly blow my socks off. I think I need to leave the options open for all of this.

I think that I'm a bit of a different person than I was a year ago. I don't think that I'm as clingy as I was then. I don't feel as though I have to prove that I'm over someone or push so hard to try and get something new up and off the ground. I no longer have the front up. I know that I want a relationship, an actual serious relationship. But I also understand that these things have to progress at their own pace, not at what I think they should be.

I think for once, I don't have to be in complete control of the situation because sometimes you just can't control everything. Life happens and well, you just have to let it happen and be there for the people that you care about when it does.

And seriously making myself think about some of the things that have happened over the last year, I realize that I miss a really good kiss. Even when it's not all that meaningful, it can still make you go weak in the knees and having you wanting more. Back then, I wasn't really ready for that more part, but oh how I miss the feeling that came with it.